A few weeks ago, one of the kids on the worship team got sick so I was asked to fill in. Being the karaoke connesuir that I am, I gladly said yes. I didn't think too much of it cause I used to sing background at my home church back in Canada.
So Sunday comes and we sing and worship and it was an awesome time. After the service, one of the elders comes up to me and says "I think you should be the song leader next Sunday." I asked him again what he had said cause I didn't think I heard him right. Sure enough that is exactly what he said. I respectfully declined and said that I don't have the voice for a song leader.... I have a voice that belongs in the background.... far, far in the background. He wouldn't take no for an answer though. As I expressed my insecurities, he walked away and said "This will be your baptism into the worship team!! See you next week!!"
A 4 letter word popped into my head and it started with the letter S.... SING?! I was nervous cause I had never done anything like that before, I didn't think I was ready, I didn't think I was good enough. Scenario after scenario played in my head. One was that I was singing in a voice that can only be described as coming from a banshee. Another would be that people would be talking about how bad it was.
As the days drew closer and closer to Sunday, I was getting more and more nervous. I hadn't picked the lineup of songs cause I was looking for the ones that I was most comfortable singing. For some reason I wasn't even comfortable singing the ones I thought I was comfortable singing. We practiced on Saturday and I still didn't feel ready. I still felt like I wasn't good enough.
Sunday morning I woke up and prayed. I said God i'm scared.... Just give me some words of comfort. As I sat there just waiting. It hit me.... When it comes to worship can you ever really be ready? Are we ever gonna be good enough to worship God? I don't think that there is a certain standard of how good your voice needs to be, or whether you know if you are an alto or soprano. Its worship. Anyone can do it, anyplace and anywhere. I quickly said "Thanks God!!" then head over to the church.
When I took out the fear of pleasing others with a nice voice, when I realized that it wasn't about anyone or anything else.... When I said I'm just gonna worship you God, It was then that I felt ready.... and I rocked the roof off of that church!! Just kidding!!
That week I did something totally out of my comfort zone.... This week try something out of yours.
Be blessed and stay classy
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